Seems endless

In hindsight this will seem like a blink, but right now I am aching. I thought we were in the home stretch. This is what I get for reading other people's timelines I guess. Someone new is in charge over at the Embassy these days, and they are not knocking things out like they were some months ago. My new goal is to have these kids home by Halloween, and I will be dying if they are not here by Thanksgiving!
I was so pumped, thinking we nearly there and that end of August/early September was a reasonable time frame. I got out all the baby clothes, and filled Z's drawers will all of Avery's old clothes. So precious to see them again! I hung up all her little dresses with cute little bloomers and bonnets, and imagined her adorable little face poking out of all of them. All those cute warm weather outfits... I separated out some of Everett's bigger summer clothes, and set them out for M (as I think he is a bit taller than E, but most likely still in the same short size as he is pretty thin). I was "ready".
Then I asked some people with knowledge of the current state of things and I was told differently, but I refuse to take out those summer clothes! I have been talking with someone going over to DRC soon who wants to take my kids a package and visit them, and I pray our agency can make that happen! Then I will send Z all those cute outfits and hope to at least get a picture of her in them:)
But I am aching that they are still months away from home. I am aching that they are making stronger bonds with another person, and then they are going to be torn away from her. I am so happy that they are being loved, but it will be so hard the longer they are there. No matter what they are being told and are trying to prepare for, This home will be a shock! I grieve for the fact they lost their birth mothers once, and will then be losing their foster mother... Baby Z will not remember either, but I imagine that M will remember both. It kills me, his happy little face, knowing how we are going to rock his world...
And on a selfish note, the longer they are in foster care, the more we have to pay for them to be in foster care! I am so grateful that they are not sitting in an orphanage ignored (not that all orphanages ignore the young children/babies, but we know foster care is better if they can get it!), but I want to be investing my money in them HERE, where I KNOW where it is going.

Please pray. DRC is not in a good way, and lots of things stirring there right now (As always).
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Pray for healthy and safety for M and Z, and peace and patience within me. God knows what He is doing, but I wish He would let me in on his little secret agenda!