It is happening!

As I told the kids this evening, nothing is 100% until I am driving away with a baby, and then it may be only short lived BUT....
Tuesday I got a call asking if we were interested in the placement of a new baby. I said SURE, thinking that chances were slim as this was the 4th or 5th time they asked and it hasn't happened yet. Wednesday they messaged "the placement is a go", followed by a bit more information. Those words had me sort of freaking out! We had given away ALL of our baby things, not wanting an attic full of stuff if we never had a baby again, and knowing we are connected with enough people that if we did get a baby, our needs could be met without buying baby things! So Wednesday, the day before Thanksgiving that I was hosting for 26 people, I started sending out messages to those I knew could hook me up with STUFF. I mentally was all about baby Wednesday evening, and Thursday I buckled down on Thanksgiving and enjoyed it immensely and relaxed, but Friday I was back in baby mode and Saturday and today I have been sick to my stomach with nerves and excitement and worry and joy and, well, everything! The crib is up, the room is cleared out, there are clean baby clothes folded, diapers purchased, bottles and pacis and bibs and blankets and car seat all ready for a little 8 lb human to use. The countdown is on, and I have no idea what to expect. From the baby and her needs, from her birth family and their situation, from the system and all the workers that come attached to her and to me. It is NOT like bringing my own newborn home from the hospital, knowing what I did when I was pregnant, being able to call all the shots and parent the way I want to parent with no one coming to check on me. Now someone will most likely also be taking the baby and handing her over to someone multiple times a week, too, and I will be out of control of that situation entirely! So yes, this is ALL going to take some time to get used to, but we are blessed and right now a wee bit stressed! Praying also for transition for all of our own kids. They are excited, but may not be so much if she is fussy or "ruining their fun"... In 15 or 16 hours, I should have a wee baby in my arms (and probably attached to my chest for long after that for weeks to come!)